Old Sketch Books

I was looking through my old sketch books today and found this. It's the first page for the first project we did when we got into sculpture. It was a self-portrait project and I just find it really interesting that the next word I wrote down was appearance. I wonder would other people have put down something similar?! More interesting to me is that the arrow from that says "how important?". The finished piece was a sound piece and it has actually been in my thoughts a lot recently in relation to my current project second skin. The aim of that piece was to give the audience an impression of me as a person, without them ever seeing me, or being able to recognise me physically. I'm not sure exactly what the relations are between the old sound piece and my work now. I think in ways I am doing the opposite now. I am working directly from my physical appearance, but not giving a direct view of it. Also I am exploring the connections and seperations between my physical self and my Self. Finally I'm interested in Identity as an idea, a theory, more so than as a reality.

Self portraiture

This is a photo I took during the summer. Its kind of been the basis for the way Ive been thinking ever since. Along with my ideas that the best reason to make art is for yourself and noone else, and that the kind of art I wanted to make was honest. So I moved on towards portraiture. Now it scares me too much and Im backtracking. In some ways Id love to continue just because it scares me....would be good to get through that fear, but in another Im just not going to risk it. My new plan is to just make work and see what happens (which is sort of the original idea anyway!). So I guess whats important is to make sure Im making work, and developing it. SO here goes!