Artist Statement

Oh...I did a sort of piece today. As soon as I get it edited Ill put it up because its 30mins long at the mo!!!! Its an aimless act...drawing boxes, then either putting ticks or Xs in each one. I like bits of it. Before I made it I hoped it would be the case that while watching it the audience would predict their way to fill each box, and begin to see themselves as different to me, but that doesnt come across. I am interested in the use of positive and negative in it, in relation to my criticism of myself and popular opinion of me as the happiest person ever, but again, I dont see it as a good piece of art. I might film it again with a better camera angle. Here are some pics I took of the paper after.

Where do I go now?

Is there any such thing as spontaneous or aimless??? I mean sure ideas can come suddenly, but personally I rarely do it immediately, I PLAN to do it someday. Aimless is "without a purpose". Even with scribbling I do it for a reason. Or do I? I guess I just do it because I want to. I know thats a good enough reason, but what good is it to anyone else? what good is it as art?
Carsten Hollers slides are amazing to me because they achieve what I was trying to achieve by giving the public crayons and paper.....a moment of fun, out of the ordinary, a moment for yourself. How can I develop on that? I keep thinking the difference between mine and his is that mine required audience participation, but so did his. A leap of faith in themselves? but so did his. AND these are aspects of art that Id like to bring to the audience. Perhaps I just dont trust them to take that leap and give themselves up to become the art. I should leave that up to each individual. So how can I do something similar???
This means that Im looking at doing an interactive piece. I like it but I do feel like theres not enough art in that for me. I need an object to call the art, perhaps something that Ive made. Could I change it up again and switch it back to video, showing me doing fun stuff like scribbling, sliding, cartwheeling, climbing trees, etc?? Im worried that that would have me looking like a crazy person again like in the Kid Project series of pictures. Hmm.
I like the idea of me looking like a crazy person, but im worried it would be off putting rather than appealling. But maybe theres a project here and I can just start it!!!!!
Thabnks for listening!

The Performance Piece

So then I did a performance because at the time it made sense that the most important thing about the scribbles was the action of doing it so DO it! At the time, bearing in mind the earlier quote I was thinking of scribbling as a leveling type of activity. The idea was that everyone probably had a similar experience of scribbling no matter who they were, or how old. It always aimless and easy. and hopefully fun, a change from the normal rhythm of life, the monotony of doing everything for a reason. Anyway it turns out Carston Holler was ahead of me on this. Check this out..its a fantastic piece!http://www.tate.org.uk/modern/exhibitions/carstenholler/

And heres an image of my performance..just me, some crayons, and 50metres of paper with all the time in the world!!
So, I did it and learned a lot but to be honest I dont think it really worked as a piece. It doesnt seem to have been saying anything really. Plus if one of the main ideas was that there was no right/wrong, good/bad way to scribble thats not the way I was thinking while doing it. I was totally aware of the audiences possible judgements and I adjusted the performance to be "better", completely defeating the point.